empty room filled

this empty room is filled with time
that passes slower than eternity.
my soul collapsed, my broken heart arrested
both with you they so long to be.

and left for speculation
is how you must spend the days
without me, without a thought of me.
perhaps better, or worse or maybe just the same.

i am paralayzed.  unable or unwilling to catch the train
to a place of peace where i forget your name.
such determination is only of a fool i know.
but i'm sitting here and waiting though
i know
i know you won't be back.
you won't see my spirit decay.
you don't care that i am numb.
i don't feel the shots fired, the piercing flames
of goodbye, of nice try, of the stupid lies.

i feel next to nothing
except the emptiness of my heart
that beats with only necessity and that alone.

alone the beating sound resounds
with condescending tones, making fun
of my survival so purposeless.
wait,
wait for another day, another way,
another reason to stay.
another empty room filled with time
that won't go away.